without the bad days, you wouln't know what a good day was

ive been so exhausted lately. just everything is starting to turn into a little bit of a mess. i miss everything that used to be around. i miss last year. even though last year was so crazy. moving around so much and so many dramas. at least school wasnt so complicated. im always so stressed about it all. and this year all those dramas seem to be gone, but now i have my own to deal with. my own dramas with myself, that no one really knows about, so therefore i have no one to really confide in. last year i got hurt, used, played whatever you wanna call it. but this year i dont even have the chance to, considering the guy i am falling for so quickly doesnt live close enough.

when people used to say as you get older things get harder, i never believed them! but now, now i do.

I WISH YOU KNEW HOW MUCH I LIKE YOU!

DISTANCE FUCKIN SUCKS!

you hated me. now you dont.
make up your mind!
stop sending mixed signals.
i wish i could tell you about my
feelings as easy as you do.
im sick of hiding it all from you.
i just want to run up to you
and tell you. but it isnt
as simple as that!

Here we go, come with me
There’s a world out there that we should see
Take my hand, close your eyes
With you right here, I’m a rocketeer

happy birthday to myself and lady gaga :)

whoever said, “you don’t know what you have until it’s gone” is wrong, because you know exactly what you have when you have it. you just don’t know how much you need it until you can’t have it anymore.

i try to tell myself everythings going to be okay, but when i really truely think about it. i know its not. sooner or later everything is going to come crashing down and im going to be stuck, completely. i really need to stop getting myself into these situations. i want to go and take every stupid thing back. i have learnt my lesson. now god, please dont hurt me.

when im being honest with myself, i dont even know how much longer i can keep up lying to myself and everyone. i have so many feelings for you, and i dont even know what to do about them. i know i love you, everything is telling me i do. but what to do about it? thats a mystery.

this rain and cold makes me wanna curl up and go to bed!

i know i shouldn't miss you, but i do. so much!

FUCK YES; its the weekend :)

everytime i see you i swear
i start liking you more.
please hurry up and make
up your mind if you like me
enough to ask me out.

and now all i can hope is that you listen to your head and your heart not the people around you :(

i wish you showed me you cared

man i love my life! im just so happy right now :)

my loves: my friends, family, texting, pink, truth or dare, shopping, winter clothes, high heels, the edge, sleeping, parties, vodka, makeup, hats, facebook, deep and meanigfuls, cuddling, mac makeup, alpacas, old photos, blankets, being crazy, nail poilish, smelling nice things, hashbrowns, boys, kissing, the rain, waiheke, drawing little pictures, cute texts, wine, painting, being healthy, walking the beach, shortland street, warm jumpers, wellington city, the name autumn, christmas food, redbull, blonde hair, nose peircings, funny teachers, having money, seeing the boy i like, getting butterflys, home and away, tattoos, blogger, striped clothes, sylvia park, cool cups, good nights, warm milo, going out, jewellery, curly hair, bellybutton peircings, hippies, pandora bracelts, fruit, knowing the truth when some has lied to me, drinking games, fast cars, dinner out, abbs, gelato,

finally i feel happy. not because of a boy, not because of anyone in paticular. just because life is so great at the moment. even though school is hard, im trying my best which is making me feel pleased with myself. all i want to do is suceed in life and get what i want out of it!

im feeling like ive got my life back :)

im actually kinda excited for winter? just being able to wear tights and jumpers.

bad decisions make good storys.

pretty keen to move back to wellington :)

i believe that everything happens for a reason.
people change so that you can learn to let them go.
things go wrong, so when they go right you can appreciate them when they go right.
you believe lies so you can eventually learn to trust no one, but yourself.
and sometimes things fall apart, so good things can fall together.

so sick D: not just with a cold, but with everything!

even when you only say a few words to me, i cant help but fall all over again.

and once again the feelings i have for you come rushing back.. even when i try so hard to not let myself fall for you again. i dont want you, but i need you. you were always there for me. no matter how hard the situation was, you always stuck by me. and now you're gone i dont have that anymore. i dont miss you, but i miss our relationship.

WOOOO rakino ( my house ) won beach sports today.

baby names i love:

for a boy: felix, mason or hunter

for a girl: autumn, rainbow or bree.

and wtf did i ever do to you? NOTHING. immature dick.

50 quick facts bout me:
1: my real name is rebecca.
2: i get bored easily.
3: i have moved houses over 20 times.
4: i hate school, no matter what school i go to.
5: i love watching tele, when good things are on.
6: i fall for people easily.
7: i have been in love.
8: i love pink.
9: i love going to partys.
10: i live on an island.
11: i never straighten my hair anymore.
12: shopping is my fave hobby.
13: peoples starsigns interest me.
14: i hate tea and coffee.
15: i am very emotional.
16: i wish i never died my hair.
17: i miss my nana alot.
18: i am the youngest sibling.
19: i want a boyfriend.
20: i love music.
21: fruit salad is one of my favourite foods.
22: i am one of the messiest people i know.
23: i trust too easily.
24: i want to be a hairdresser when i leave school.
25: guys that smell good are the hottest.
26: i have 'crushes' on a few different people.
27: i love the beach, but cant swim.
28: reality programes are my life.
29: weheartit is one of my most used websites.
30: im leaving school when im 16.
31: regrets rule my life.
32: i like to think im friendly.
33: i am currently growing my hair again.
34: also going to go blonde.
35: i want to lose weight.
36: i live for the weekends.
37: having money is the best.
38: i love taking photos.
39: the true friends i have mean the world to me.
40: guys with cars are instantly hotter.
41: i like things that smell lovely.
42: i need a job.
43: im very bubbly, not shy at all.
44: i know so many lyrics to songs.
45: i text waay too much.
46: you hardly ever see me without makeup.
47: i have met mr perfect.
48: i only get along with certain members of my family.
49: one of my good friends is on shortland street.
50: i dont change for anyone.

so when im 18 that will be my second tattoo i get possibly :)

havent even been at school for a month and im already counting down the weeks until the holidays. i think these ones are going to be good! cant wait :)

love the kardashians!

nearly only one more year till im 16 and i can leave school, move out, pretty much do whatever i want.

FREEDOM!

what is love?

do you tell them that everyday they are the only one you think of? it isn't love, its a lie. do you want them because you know they're there? it isn't love its lonlieness.
do you accept there faults because its part of who they are? then it's love. do you find others attractive but stay with them faithfully without regret? then it's love. would you give them your heart, your life, your death? think about it for a second.

everyone has a secret they haven't shared. everyone has a past no one's heard about. everyone has talents that people don't notice. everyone has weaknesses hidden inside. everyone has a story left untold.

to my dreamy perfect guy: i never thought i would meet someone as half as amazing as you. as soon as i met you, i knew i wanted you to be in my life. and i still think the same months later. people say they think you're perfect, i know you are perfect. and you're perfect for me. i want you to sweep me off my feet like ive been imagining everyday. ill be here waiting, because you're worth it.

i dont even know what to do anymore. i am wayyy too confused :(

i wish i had that one person i could talk to anything about no matter how bad it is. someone that will reassure me its okay. someone who will make me laugh and smile after crying. someone to love me. for me.

dont you HATE it when you make plans with someone, and then someone else invites you to something better but you cant cancel with the other person? I DO ITS LAME :(

and after all the time of the so called 'perfect' boy, they all break my heart. is it so bad to want to find love?

i want you. and i only want you. why dont you understand D: